If I Had Only Known


by Saber ShadowKitten

If I had only known it was the last walk in the rain,
Id keep you out for hours in the storm.
I would hold your hand, like a life line to my heart.
Underneath the thunder wed be warm.
If I had only known it was the last walk in the rain.


Buffy sat staring out her window. No expression or emotion showed on her young face. Her eyes, however, betrayed her feelings. Out in the night, somewhere, was the demon who wore her loves face.

Willow and Xander sat on her bed, silently supporting Buffy. It was strange, Xanders silence. Usually he made jokes to lighten the mood or because he was scared. This time, however, he knew silence would help his best friend more.


If I had only known Id never hear your voice again,
Id memorize each thing youve ever said.
And on those lonely nights, I could think of you once more.
Keep your words alive inside my head.
If I had only known Id never hear your voice again.


Willow stood and moved to Buffy. Sitting down next to her, she smiled and took Buffys hand, squeezing it gently. Buffy smiled slightly and squeezed back, then returned to the window.


You were the treasure in my hand.
You were the one who always stood beside me.
So unaware, I foolishly believed that you would always be there.
But then there came a day,
And I turned my head and you slipped away.


Xander stood and moved to the other side of Buffy, putting his arm around her shoulder. Buffy looked at her other best friend. He smiled gently as she leaned into him and began to cry.

Her Angel was gone.


If I had only known it was my last night by your side,
Id pray a miracle stop the dawn.
And when you smiled at me I would look into your eyes
And make sure you know my love for you goes on and on.
If I had only known,
If I had only known,

The love I would have shown, if I had only known.